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I got a new edition of pablo neruda's love poems!! I can speak spanish but it's nice to have the translation as well.

I HAVE GONE MARKING
I have gone marking the atlas of your body
with crosses of fire.
My mouth went across: a spider, trying to hide.
In you, behind you, timid, driven by thirst.

Stories to tell you on the shore of evening,
sad and gentle doll, so that you should not be sad.
A swan, a tree, something far away and happy.
The season of grapes, the ripe and fruitful season.

I who lived in the harbour from which I loved you.
The solitude crossed with dream and with silence.
Penned up between the sea and the sadness.
Soundless, delirous, between two motionsless
gondoliers.

Between the lips and the voice of something goes dying.
Someting with the wings of a bird, something of
anguish and oblivion.
The way nets cannot hold water.
My toy doll, only a few drops are left trembling.
Even so, something sings in these fugitive words.
Something sings, something climbs to my ravenous
mouth.
Oh to be able to celebrate you with all the words of
joy.
Sing, burn, flee, like a belfry at the hands of a
madman.
My sad tenderness, what comes over you all at once?
When I have reached the most awesome and the
coldest summit
my heart closes like a nocturnal flower.

It is my favourite out of the collection. I think it's just stunning.

I was looking through my phone to all the text messages I never had the courage to send. So I'll say them here, exactly as they are in my phone:

Annie: "hey, no it's fine! I just don't really want to go out and I know you are all bubbly and shit but I just don't think I can be that person."

Michael: "I miss you. so fucking much. can you not just come back  here for a week or two?"

Jamie: "I hope you're happy with that whore. Enjoy the rest of your shit life."

Leo: "Heya! I know, it was nice meeting you too! do you maybe fancy grabbing a drink/coffee sometime?"

My Mother: "maybe it would just be easier if you stayed in resedential? I can take of jamie et al."

Suki: "I am really low and I miss you and love you so much :("

Laura: "hey, it's alison (from joe's gathering?) I was wondering if you wanted to go out friday night?"


I wonder how different things would have been if I had sent any/all of these...

recieved some lovely homophobia on formspring. its made me want to turn full lezza hah. we shall see. In the mean time, I failed at taking any sort of pictures in london because I ran out of time/energy and am back at work naao but shall try and get some stuff up this weekend.